Things.

I have so many of them. Things. Today I unpacked them all and once again filled my closet, my dresser, my desk and my counter tops with things. I don't need any of these things. I don't even like most of them. Why did I spend money on these things instead of more useful, more interesting...well...things? Tangible things are really causing the problem here. There are so many things more important in life than things.

Mr. Anderson, my 9th grade English teacher, asked of our class every once in a while, "tell me something that is not wrong."

Here are some things that are not wrong today:
Photographs
Dexter
Denny's hot chocolate
Maynard James Keenan
Baby Spice
Apple cinnamon oatmeal
Noodles & Company

Music

How generic a topic to choose...but right now, I feel music.

Sometimes when I'm in this condition, I reconsider everything. Do I actually like the people with whom I interact? Do I really believe what I tell myself I believe? Are any of my thoughts or actions real, or are they all just for show? Constructions of society that I reflect in my day-to-day life without further consideration? This almost turned into a whole different blog post. Back to the topic at hand.

Music. Music, in most any form, is one of few things that is always certain.

Wish You Were Here

Let's ignore the fact that this is one of the most amazing songs ever written and consider the phrase out of context. "Wish you were here." Holy hell. Tell me that isn't one of the most intense emotions ever. It's hard to describe it in a single word; "desire" doesn't quite cut it--"longing," perhaps? But still, to long for something somehow implies (at least in my interpretation) intention to go after that which is desired. "Wish you were here." No call to action. But not out of apathy or lack of motivation. Maybe out of hopelessness; maybe out of fear. Doomed to just...wish.

"Wish you were here." I've felt few things as strongly as I've felt this. And I've felt it for so many! But every "wish you were here" feels stronger than the last, and so this is my strongest yet. I wish you were here.